Today

Creative title eh? So lots of random thoughts for the day....
Our day (mine and the kids) didn't start off on the best foot this morning. Ashlyn woke up WAY too early and way too grumpy. Her grumpiness rubbed off on me way too fast (might have had something to do with her waking me up at 2:00 am and then waking up early- lack of sleep seems to make me irritable). But we just battled it out all morning. I wanted to throw in the towel and quit my job of "mom" for the day by 8:30 am. I don't know what it is with Ashlyn lately, but we are really having a hard time with her attitude, obedience, moodiness... ( I know she's a girl). I was talking to my dad last night about it and I said, "Dad, just tell me is this 3 year old behavior or is it personality." He didn't answer ( I don't think he dared tell me). She is so strong willed that there is no changing her mind when she has made it up. Anyway, I've really been struggling with her lately. So as I talked to my parents last night my mom said try really hard to point out her good points and praise her for what she does right. So I went to bed thinking how I could make things better and work with her more. That all went out the window about 10 minutes after we woke up this morning... maybe tomorrow mom.
In all the turmoil of this morning I somehow got Tanner down for a nap just to wake him up 30 min. later to go over to the church for a Young Women's meeting. Yes, I am now in Young Womens. They released me from Primary about a month ago, gave me the cushiest calling in the world (assistant ward librarian) for two whole weeks and then released me and called me as the second counselor in the young womens (over the beehives). I have so many mixed emotions about this calling. When I was released from primary I told Brad I would do anything they called me to, but I really didn't want Young Womens. I shouldn't have said it out loud. I know Heavenly Father knows the bigger picture and there is a reason for everything so I know Young Womens is where I need to be, but I'm just not feeling it yet. In our meeting today they were talking about activities and girls camp and all these cute ideas, and it all just feels so foreign to me. I had such great Young Women leaders growing up that really took time for me, and it wasn't until I had my own family that I think I truly appreciated all they did for me. I think I am so selfish with my time, I just keep thinking about my Yoga class that I loved teaching that I had to give up on Tuesday nights to go to mutual and how I have to spend one more night a week away from my family, and waking my baby up to go to meetings... What was it President Hinckley's father wrote to him on his mission- Forget yourself and go to work? I'm going to try.
Next thought.... I have great friends and neighbors and I feel so blessed to live here. I had some friends over for lunch for a neighbors birthday today and we had a great time. The kids actually played well together, and the adults were able to visit. My friend has been through some pretty crazy things the last couple of weeks and it is just amazing to me how strong people can be through their trials.
And last but not least we had SUNSHINE today. YIPEE! I think we all just need a healthy dose of sunshine to get over our winter moodiness! We went for a walk and played outside this afternoon- it was so nice. I am so ready for SPRING.